Don't Miss Your Breakthrough.

Over the last few days I've been thinking a lot about what I place my value on.  The context of why I've been thinking this lies in the reality of Lauren and I just having our first baby, Levi.  As many of you may know there is a beautiful journey of prayer and faith that is married to this little guy.  Over the last few days I've found myself remembering the process, looking back through journal entries, prayers, songs, etc. Seeing all the Lord revealed to me about his heart during that period is something I'll never forget.  I say this vulnerably...is it wrong for me to want that back?  Here is this beautiful boy that represents "breakthrough," and the promise of God fulfilled in our lives.  I want to celebrate that and I am thrilled with my son.  Here, at the same time I felt so much of my value and identity rested in this place of praying for something, and now that I have the breakthrough I prayed for I'm having to reevaluate what I value and where my identity lies.  I say this b/c I think for some of us out there we spend a lot of time praying for breakthrough yet, we completely miss it, b/c truthfully our whole identity would be lost if we actually got what we were praying for.  To me this is a scary notion, I think about Acts 12.  Peter was released from prison by an Angel of the Lord and when the people who were praying for him were told he was released they said, "You're out of your mind."  They missed it, they couldn't celebrate the fact that their prayers had been answered!  How hard is God to persuade or convince to set the captives free, to bring revivals to our cities, to give life, to heal, and save?  To me it seems like this is the Father's nature and our role is to say what He said and do what HE did so the Kingdom would come to earth just like Jesus did.  Don't miss your breakthrough b/c you're still praying, celebrate it and steward the reality of breakthrough, so the increase of His Kingdom would be found here in the earth.  So, is it wrong for me to want that back?  What I really want is more of the Lord, and I've seen more of Him lately through my son than possibly in my lifetime.  I want more of you Lord, I will abandon myself as I worship, may you do the same.